AliveSinceForever

More or less every retail job I've ever had Gratitude in the workplace is the theme for this week. Considering I started school specifically to avoid having to go to work, this one is a little bit tough for me. I guess in a way, I'm thankful I don't have to work so I can just go to school and better myself. I'm grateful that I'm able to go back to work when I am ready, and not now while I'm sorting myself out. I've always been that stubborn only child, so things don't really get done, or done happily, until I'm ready to do them. (and I recognize this is one of my weaknesses!) I'm sure you gathered that, based on how close to the deadline I always get! I'm thankful for this 90 😜😝😝 I'm really thankful I even have school to begin with. I haaaaate waking up, but it's nice to get out of bed every day and be a productive member of society. I only ever have to go in for one class a day, so it's nice to feel so accomplished b...

I've picked the images that I picked for a few reasons. First, I've picked the quotes and phrases because they are things that I have a hard time reminding myself of, and motivating myself. I am generally my own worst enemy so affirmations like "you will have what you want sometime soon" and "don't give up on yourself" really help get me through the day. I also wanted to remind myself of the future with those quotes. I picked a lot of tropical images because I want to live somewhere tropical, specifically Miami. Just something about the beach really makes me thrive. I picked a few events, namely a wedding-- because I want to get married but also because I want to be an event planner. I also added a picture of my boyfriend and I to represent who I want in my future and my commitment to him. The huskies are there because my boyfriend and I really love huskies and we would rather have a husky than a baby. I added a costume...

If I had to pick one thing I'm passionate about, I honestly couldn't pick because I'm insanely passionate about so many things. Food, art, dancing, music, sleep... I love them all so much and it drives me to learn as much as I possibly can and try as much of it as I possibly can. One thing I wish I could do every day for the rest of my life would be... nothing at all! I would love having the freedom to do, or not do, as I please. The freedom to explore all my passions at my leisure and not being beholden to society's hours. I consider myself a night owl, and even with all of the sleep in the world, I'm still so exhausted during the day (I don't like caffeine) but at night I have all of the energy in the world. I'm really into nightlife and clubbing and the social aspect (it's why I picked event planning major) and being a night owl really helps. On vacation in Miami last year, I went to a club called Space. This club is the type of club that opens at 10P...

My friend Anya, she's an expert in mindfulness This is a tattoo one of my closest friends has. I really love it and I believe it's something we could all remind ourselves of when we are taking things for granted. One thing I've been working on is taking experiences for granted. Before I started taking care of my mental health, I would be selfish and kind of 'ruin' perfectly fine situations because something offended me or didn't go right. Another thing I absolutely take for granted is my health. I am lucky to not have much wrong with me but lately I've not been exercising and eating absolute garbage, and have gained the weight to prove it. I stopped smoking, but now I vape instead and I'm not sure it's any better for me, or makes me look any cooler. Myself, my boyfriend, Anya and some others at Katsucon this year. I am thankful for that weekend every year. That was actually a really hard paragraph for me to write because I've never ...

Presently, I'm exhausted. I've had such a busy February and it's finally starting to wind down thank god. Started off the month with two different concerts, which actually weren't that good. Then we moved into Valentine's day which was a really nice time because my boyfriend Hassan and I decided to just stay in and eat fried chicken because we were saving our money for Katsucon at the end of the week. Hassan and I on the Saturday afternoon of Katsucon in our hotel room Katsucon is an annual anime convention in National Harbor, Maryland. It's basically an artificial city constructed just for the gorgeous convention center. The week after we were there, they had CPAC. So it was fancy, and expensive. I go when I can because it's the only time I can see specific friend groups and there's restaurants down there that aren't up here. Hassan had never been so we drove down and had the time of our lives. We had several incredible dinners, and made so...

Boy, oh boy. I've been waiting for this week. I'm over it, but I'm still not over it. Where do I even begin? Buckle up because this is gonna be a long one. Avery was a guy who came into my life in the fourth quarter of 2016. In previous entries, you may have read how 2016 was super shitty for me. Well, he was the king of shit mountain for me. The only good thing he ever did for me was teach me exactly how not to be in a relationship. During the course of our relationship he did the following: had sex with his ex and I found out because she wrote "daddy's little slut" on his fridge moved out of Massachusetts to Baltimore, MD the day before my birthday got in between myself and a coworker of mine he stopped hooking up with once we got to dating, and it almost came to blows at work had sex with a girl he knew I did not like and lied to me about it, I only found out because I found the condoms (ahem, my condoms) next to the bed, conviently the day befo...