AliveSinceForever

Presently, I'm exhausted. I've had such a busy February and it's finally starting to wind down thank god. Started off the month with two different concerts, which actually weren't that good. Then we moved into Valentine's day which was a really nice time because my boyfriend Hassan and I decided to just stay in and eat fried chicken because we were saving our money for Katsucon at the end of the week. Hassan and I on the Saturday afternoon of Katsucon in our hotel room Katsucon is an annual anime convention in National Harbor, Maryland. It's basically an artificial city constructed just for the gorgeous convention center. The week after we were there, they had CPAC. So it was fancy, and expensive. I go when I can because it's the only time I can see specific friend groups and there's restaurants down there that aren't up here. Hassan had never been so we drove down and had the time of our lives. We had several incredible dinners, and made so...

Boy, oh boy. I've been waiting for this week. I'm over it, but I'm still not over it. Where do I even begin? Buckle up because this is gonna be a long one. Avery was a guy who came into my life in the fourth quarter of 2016. In previous entries, you may have read how 2016 was super shitty for me. Well, he was the king of shit mountain for me. The only good thing he ever did for me was teach me exactly how not to be in a relationship. During the course of our relationship he did the following: had sex with his ex and I found out because she wrote "daddy's little slut" on his fridge moved out of Massachusetts to Baltimore, MD the day before my birthday got in between myself and a coworker of mine he stopped hooking up with once we got to dating, and it almost came to blows at work had sex with a girl he knew I did not like and lied to me about it, I only found out because I found the condoms (ahem, my condoms) next to the bed, conviently the day befo...

Life happens so quickly these days that you never really realize how they affect you until you're already thousands of dollars deep in therapy and you're halfway through a bag of hot Cheetos and sativa. One of my best friends always tells me that life is just a series of teachable moments. Every situation and every person can teach us something on our path of becoming our greater selves. These moments change us and shape us in ways we couldn't even imagine. Above & Beyond Common Ground 02/09/2018 One big moment that changed the trajectory of my life is when my mom told me my dad wasn't my dad. I was around 12 or 13 years old at the time, and we were just lying in bed at night talking. I don't even remember how it came up but she had something important to tell me, and I told her I knew already (though I don't know how I knew) and she told me. It's still incredibly painful to think about and I've blocked out a lot of the memories of the feeli...

I didn't realize the power I had as a designer until I started school. I had always had praise on social media for my outfits but this was different. This week my hospitality class went to a place called PEAK Event Management Services. They do event rentals, like tables, linens, chairs, plates, etc. After the tour, our professor had us make a tablescape while they took the other half of the class on the tour. If you can't tell by now, I'm sure you know I loved it and had a blast! This blush glitz tablecloth had caught my eye as soon as we walked in and I knew I was going to use it. Rose gold is super in right now so I was like a mad man running around trying to find things that match. Color coordinating is kind of my thing after being in fashion for so long. I loved it but I was really surprised other people really loved it too. The professor said it was beautiful (and probably really expensive too.) and I was shook. But at the same time I felt confident that I picked the r...